But my real reason for writing today at Conglomo Mall job, the big boss lady felt she needed to have a sit down with me. Why? Because certain managers aren't able to communicate effectively with me and i with them. Like one manager, we'll call her "Celena" because thats her name., every time i have a concern about her scheduling me when i am working at my other job or the one day a week (sunday) i request never to be scheduled she acts like i am asking her to personally work my shift and starts spazzing out on me. Intelligent black woman working as a manager at a technology retailer you'd think she'd have some sense and a little bit of compassion. Another manager straight up lied multiple times when we were in this little meeting saying she heard from other peopel i just didn't like her. WTF, i wouldn't tell anybody at my job that anyways. What the fuckin shit? i can't even beleve she said that but one of my co-workers told me she lied on him last saturday. So i can believe it.
I'm a huge shit talker, but i'm smart enough not to talk shit to and about my coworkers and managers. I'm not stupid or trife; and this bitch, we'll call "Leslie", at that moment (and through history)was acting stupid and trife. I've been working here longer than she has and she came into this bitch trying to make best friends with everyone, acting hella sugary n shit. I dont need cavities but it looks like i didn't brush hard or long enough. Bitch.
The big boss lady kept asking me if i felt this job is beneath me. I genuinely like being here, everyonce in a while but i dont like working in the mall. I'm not mall people. Nor retail people. It's really hardto be unnaturally upbeat when dealing with angry ass yuppies who spent more on a damn touch screen phone than i make in a week. What is beneath me is managers who feel the need to micromanage my face, talk to me like i'm stupid and discount my intelligence.
I have really been hesitant to quit this job especially since i got my internship at Blue Sky. I dont know how long it's going to last etc etc. But if big boss lady is going to insinuate for an hour that i should quit, i will. At Blue Sky i'll be able to make 40 hours a week, photoshop, surf the internet and make contributions that will be measurable inside of a company of 40 people. Not one with 10,000 retail employees slaving for the corporate brain out in Cupertino, Ca.
All this to say that i am doing great. I am making moves forward in realizing my dreams. I am going to start a publishing house, invent and then re-invent "Magazine 2.0", develop new kinds of websites where people can come to new conclusions through their interaction with each other and a form of AI. I have alot of ideas and none of them include working for someone else, being micro managed or spending 25+ hours in the mall. And 6 months after i graduated from college i am making moves i didn't think would be available to me.
But they are because, I DID.
I AM
and
I WILL